I think it’s time to accept that my motivation and getitdoneness come in waves, and not moan about how normal people would be handle this just fine.
‘cause the “normal” I have in my head is a strawperson that I use to beat myself up.
And not dealing with my actual reality is probably making me crazier.
It’s unlikely I’m going to get a diagnosis for ADHD or Asperger’s anytime soon because my depression is the focus right now and I’m not even really sure I have either. But that doesn’t mean there isn’t still stuff going on in my brain that I can work with and try to make things better for myself absent a relevant diagnosis.
Some days I’m just going to sleep and stare at the internet and hopefully remember to eat. Other days I will do all the things. This can be okay.
Hey, not beating myself up about sleeping and staring at the internet yesterday actually worked. Today I got up and got showered and dressed and I’m going out and everything. Yay!